Saturday, April 09, 2005

For Those Of Us Who Are Lost


Lately i've noticed that i'm not the only one like this, it IS something in the air! [Previous Post]

Last night I went out with a very good friend of mine and we spoke. He wanted my support, let's call it that, for him to pursue something with someone i know is NOT good. In the end, I'll support him because, as he would say, "he's my bro." Regardless the outcome I know I can say whatever I say about not talking about it anymore, about not getting into that mess, and all that... i know I will end up being there to either pick up the pieces or pat him on the back for a good job.

I got to thinking this last night and this morning as I stumbled around sick as hell, sneezing and coughing. Seeing the sun rise in unison with my fever. The morning heat was nothing compared to the sweats of my condition. I walked downstairs and made myself breakfast, nothing big, just scrambled eggs with nothing. Salt. Glass of Milk. Walked up the stairs and sat down at the old throne of mine [the computer] and read everything I could, saw as many backed up episodes of LOST i could see, and started to watch TV. I passed out around 2pm. Ate lunch drenched in sweat, i guess i was sweating the fever. Fever left. The cold came back. Then sore throat came. Walked upstairs. Laid down, passed out. Woke up at 8pm.

Throughout all that my mind was working non-stop. Thinking of what is it I miss. It's funny, I have to admit I thought of her a lot. I think that is kind of weird too, makes no sense. Comes and goes. Comes and goes.

Someone very important to someone I know once said:

"You are damned if you do, you are damned if you don't."

Interesting. You're probably thinking "so, basically, whatever I do I'm fucked?"

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Yeah

But don't think of it as a bad thing. Really. Don't. This is different. At least, I see it different. No matter what you do, something always goes bad. But I learned a long time ago that for every good thing there is an exact opposite bad thing coming your way; and vice-versa. Why hold things back? Why not go all the way? Why not give your heart all out? Why not give the girl a second chance? Why not move on? Why not tell her how you feel? Why not try a new style? Why not go to the interview of the job? Why not go over and talk to the girl? Why don't I buy her those flowers? Why don't you tell your parents you NEED your freedom? Why don't you realize that you are the problem? Why don't you just stop? Why don't you just start?

"Why not?" ... - ... People always listen to my advice, knowing i'm harsh and straight to the point, and somehow say "WHY?" and my response shall always be "why not?" If you always ask yourself WHY? WHY? WHY? I think you should be asking yourself "Why don't i?"

It comes back to this again...

the wise Ili once said "It is worse to regret something you never did, than to regret something you did"

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couldn't have put it better myself
teacher george

8 comments:

iliana... said...

Well I believe that we should always wonder why, what's out reason to do things, we should always have one (because we want to, is good enough). Pero yo creo k es importante saber pk uno hace o no hace laa cosas.
But I deeply believe that we should never stop doing anything because of fear, life is about taking risks, if you dont, you never get anything.

Anonymous said...

hace varios posts que no se q comentar...me han impactado bastante ..a veces hasta retraso el momento de leerlos o lo hago por partes

ojala te mejores pronto, y q esta mañana hayas amanecido mucho mejor...

Gabriela said...

Claro que hay que preguntarse Why?, pero, (there's always a BUT!) debes estes claro en las consecuencias y en las razones por las cuales hagas (o no hagas) algo.

PLANETABLOG said...

I've been there!

Manu said...

Why? Would it be wrong IF....you start thinking Why I always ask myself WHY? Y otra fefe: Why one have be different to be with a girl? Stop thinking about thinking......Lanza't a la piscina, solamente así vas a saber si tiene agua; pero nunca nunca quieras nadar como nunca lo has hecho.....

Chenkui....Yakchemash ;)

Carmen Almonte said...

Bueno.......tengo como tres dias leyendo esto y cada vez q lo leo me hace pensar algo diferente pero lo unico q puedo decirte es
"Cuando un hombre camina en dirección a su destino, se ve forzado muchas veces a cambiar su rumbo. Otras veces las circunstancias externas son más fuertes, y se ve obligado a acobardarse y ceder.Pero nadie puede perder de vista lo que quiere. Aunque en algunos momentos piense que el mundo y los demás son más fuertes. El secreto es éste: no desistir."
Paulo Coehlo

::over-whelmed:: said...

JUST DO IT.. [listen to ili].. =)

Gabriela said...

Nat, te esta patrocinando Nike??